The Other Side......

Well time in the kingdom has changed beyond what I ever thought it would be. The would be Jester Uncle Grumpy now has a new King. Our Lord God by the grace of Jesus Christ now reigns high over the kingdom. The Jester no longer suffers from the grips of a earthly world but knows the kingdom of heaven awaits when his time comes. Much darkness closed the kingdom down for what seem a life time but in God's time but a wink. Praise, praise........

The Kingdom Is No More

As much as I pissed and moan about the King and Queen I would do anything to have them back in my life. I have lost a anchor that seem to keep me grounded even if it was twisted as such. Much has happen since my last blog and things will never be the same in the Land of Confusion. There is no way to express the hurt and heartache I feel not having them in my life. Make sure you tell the one's you love just that cause you never know when the last time may be.........I will carry on but.......

This Is On Me

What I have been blogging about was my parents world. At the same time my world has been crumbling around me. In spite of landing the best job of my life my insides have been dying. You see the fact is that I am an addict. After a back operation in 06 I have been taking vast and mass amounts of painkillers in order to cope with chronic pain. Now I have no idea if the pain is real or I just depend on the meds to cope with my own shortcomings. I am not writing to make excuses but to open the door for my recovery back to the person I once was. I can not say what last Sunday brought me to my senses but by the grace of God it has. I started burning old drug bridges by telling the ones I love the truth about me. You see drugs are nothing more than one lie on top of another lie ...to a point that you are unsure of what the truth really is. So I have begun building new bridges back to recovery. I am a 23 years recovering alcoholic and why I have not drank is a mystery to me. This Sunday is all goes well I going in for a medical detox cause I fear I can not do it on my own. My boss is 100% behind as my friends are and little does my brother know he just may be saving my life. Even now with the truth in the open my body screams you can still wriggle your way out of this and carry on as before. Its not my parents fault, nor my wife's,nor doctors...it falls directly on my shoulders. The guilt, shame that I have lived with has been just mind blowing. Do I have a valid reason to take meds? Yes..but the price is way to high for me to live with. Only God's strength has sustain me with the courage to face this evil that has ruled my life for the past couple of years. I could say crap like ...well its only gotten bad in the last couple of months but that is just another lie my mind trys to tell me.

So pray that God has mercy on my body and mind. I will see you out the other side..God willing....

From The Land Of ID

Sunday morning in the land of ID. Knight Warren sits and wonders if he should saddle up and ride of to ParentLand. Its been several weekends since he has made that trip.His mind is ablaze with the thoughts of what could be his price to pay for such an act, Oh yes-rest assure that there will be a price to pay.Yesterday was spent with Madam Mary looking for treasures at other castles in the land of ID. The land of ID is not far from ParentLand but nearly not far enough..
Fears of losing the King and Queen have often at times made my decisions for me. Yet the toxic waste that lays in ParentLand consumes me all to much. My saddle grows cold.

Lost In Never Never Land

As always we find Parentland in the middle of nothing. The King of Parentland has been reunited with the Queen. The King has his own room as not to disturb the Queen. Sadly the King can no longer stand upright as he is now confined to a wheelchair. This is the newest twist to the world of Parentland where real life is left to hang in the air. The King and Queen have been together for so long its is only fitting that once again they rule the Parentland Kingdom. Squire Robin has taken the point as I have removed myself from Parentland cause there is a toxic substance that has cause me harm. I pray for strength and courage to once again to face Parentland this Sunday as it is my duty to endure whatever Parentland has to offer. Does God dwell in Parentland? At one time I believed so but the King no longer excels at what he preached. I believe that the Queen has the connection but is ruled by the wits learn in the former glory days of the kingdom. The kingdom now has grown small and hollow as I walk the halls of the castle of Parentland. I pray I can take with me the God given sense and strength to endure the kingdom. Having talked with Squire Mark I feel renewed and able to face the vast emptiness of Parentland. Thank you Mark for sharing with me things I already know but needed to hear.

"The Truth May Set You Free But It's Bound To Piss Off Somebody"

PurpleHaze in ParentLand

Well for those or anyone that may have the time to read this bloody thing here it goes. I now have access form my work so who knows what I may write now-lol.
In the wonderful world of ParentLand......The King can not have his hip replacement surgery so its a wheelchair for the remaining days he has on this earth. I state as such cause he will not last long I believe cause his failure to give a crap about most everything.The Squire Robin once again pull off no less a miracle to get back at the center where my mom is. He will have his own room due to the fact Hospice will be on board to help him out. This pulls a lot of weight off the Queen of ParentLand.
Ask by Squire Robin what King of ParentLand wanted his reply was to be with the Queen and out of pain.
So the king will now along with the Queen receive a steady dose of drugs that will enable them to float from day to day in a drug induced haze. Pretty sad when all you have to look forward to is the next dose you receive. Hell-at that rate he just may make it longer than I expect. The Queen of ParentLand has not been happy cause her loyal subjects have not provided enough attention. The King and Queen both vie for attention.The royal phone seems only to work in one direction which is one of the strange happenings in Parentland.
If and when my time comes to enter into a ParentLand of my own I will not linger in the kingdom for very long. I will pull in the royal drawbridge and burn the castle around me before I have to live in a world such has been made by the King and Queen
So the Kingdom of ParentLand enters into what maybe the last chapter. I have to say its a kingdom by their own design but sadly not to their liking. So goes on the sad story of the King and Queen in the wonderful twisted world of ParentLand.

My Man Cave

Funny how habits just form without little notice. Living fairly far from town I end up spending most of my time at home after work.I have a room that has a bunch of electronic goodies. I all at once surround by all kinds of noise. The TV on with somebody singing away,the cb radio blaring out some skip coming in from New Jersey, the phone ringing with somebody wanting money,the the computer screen showing vast and mass amounts of streaming rain coming my way. I would venture a guess that I have sensor overload but in that sense its a world at your finger tips. I now have a phone that will do most anything but I use it to do nothing. I just wondering sometimes what all this really meaning when you have so much input coming in but so little input going out. I forget to get up off my butt and walk into the other room to tell my wife hello. Or to take the time to play with my dog...or to take a moment to tell those I love I love you. So if I haven't told you lately I love you....the best thing I have heard or said today....
God Bless and hold tight what is most important to you....Peace Out...Uncle Grumpy

I think I will get up now......